A Good Hair Day

My image in the mirror seems to taunt me.

“Waste of time. Waste of money.”

I am at the salon, having my hair highlighted and trimmed.

I swivel slowly and try to imagine myself without any hair.

For 15 days I have been waiting for test results that will help my doctors and me decide if I need chemotherapy. There’s a reason why it’s called cancer patient. I must be patient as I wait for the phone call that will determine my course of treatment for the days, weeks, months and years ahead.

Moments ago there were hugs in the back room of the salon. “I was diagnosed with breast cancer,” I tell my stylist.

I struggle to suppress the tears. “If I lose my hair, you might be losing a client for awhile.”

It has been two weeks since my surgery. The pathologist has sent a sample of my cancerous tissue to a lab in Northern California. I have opted for the Oncotype DX test. Since the test became available seven years ago, more than 175,000 women and their doctors have relied on the test to decide if they would benefit from chemotherapy. Most people who have early stage breast cancer that has not spread and is fueled by estrogen, are considered low risk for recurrence. I fit the criteria!

In a lab, a scientist has been studying the activity of my tumor to determine the likelihood that my cancer will return in the next 10 years. A low score means the patient probably would not be helped by chemotherapy. Radiation followed by hormone therapy then is considered the best course of treatment. With radiation, doctors treat only the tumor site. With chemotherapy, they treat the entire body. There can be troublesome side affects and often an impact on the quality of life. Sometimes there is weight loss, nausea, weakness and yes, hair loss. Of course I want to avoid chemotherapy. But I also know that I will do whatever I have to do to recover. If need be, I will rock my baldness!

Naomi peeks under the foils that make me look like there is Jiffy Pop on my head. At that moment, my cellphone rings and I recognize the number of my surgeon.

I can’t swallow, but I manage to get out the words “Hi Doctor.”

“Are you ready for this?” She has said only five words. I interpret so much. I imagine her smiling, a cellphone balanced on her shoulder.

“You are SUCH an over-achiever!” Now I too am smiling.

“Your Oncotype is a 9.” On a scale that extends to 100, I am a 9: extremely low risk of recurrence. Chemotherapy would be no benefit to me.

I text the news to my husband. His reply fills the entire screen of my cellphone. WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I am grateful for the recent medical advances in breast cancer diagnosis, testing and treatment. Science means I did not have to struggle with a decision for treatment.

Southern California is showing off as I step into a perfect September evening. A harvest moon hanging low in a sky the color of blue Gatorade.

As the salon door eases closed behind me, I hear someone inside yell out “Your new cut looks great!”

I smile as I say “Thanks…I think I’ll keep it !”

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  • sibila vargas

    You go Girl!!!
    God Bless,

  • Nina

    Sandra this is such big news. I tell you, my sister is a breast cancer survivor. Her course was much more difficult back in 1997 when technology had not advanced so much. Her chemotherapy bewildered us all thinking they are killing her rather than saving her. I saw her bald .. I saw her yellow .. it tugged at my heart when they put the catheter that stays in you for the course of it. The doctor at the time thought her being awake would guide him best and I cannot describe the pain she endured.

    I am so happy for you .. I felt a bit paralyzed when I first heard of your news. God Bless you tons of times .. you give to your community and you give to your friends and you are such a high performance kind of person. I wish you a long life. I send you a hug and tap on your shoulders for doing so well during the crisis and being so open about it. Your heartfelt words are a beacon for others.I have seen your personality sparkle in social events and your work by itself put you at such a test .. but you spear headed an open account and you set the needed boundaries to make it all work for the betterment of your condition and the benefit of others. In our day and age you have a solid rock on personality. I so admire you even more! God Bless in every way!

  • Earl Smith

    Sandra, The best of luck to you!! For my favorite News Anchor on my favorite News Station. Your professionalism shines through in all aspects!! Take Care.

  • Andi

    no wonder you look so happy and at peace on todays 3 pm news cast on channel 9…..peace and blessings to you …

  • Jennifer Schelling

    Hi Sandra,
    I just read your blog and there are tears in my eyes. I know exactly how you felt waiting for results. Not knowing is worse than knowing. I am now an almost 6 year breast cancer survivor. Stage 3!
    You are truly blessed to have such wonderful friends and family who will guide you through your journey.
    I am so happy to hear that you do not need chemo. You will get through the radiation and move on. I will think good thoughts your way for you and your family.
    Hang in there!!! You will sail through this!!!

  • Eddie Miguel Olivas Bataz

    I’m shocked. I always love seeing you on TV. I had no idea you struggled with cancer. You’re such a pleasure to watch. Your beauty resonates throughout the news broadcast. I congratulate you in overcoming your breast cancer Sandra. I’m glad you’re still gonna be on TV. Love you so much. Please take care.

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